Was writing up my proposal that the deadline is next week

Suddenly I feel like crying
 I stopped for awhile and log in to this blog.....

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The biggest challenge I ever had so far is about writing up the proposal

So stressful, so tough to deal with all the things related with proposal

I was just motivated after the result came out

But now, this thing demotivate me

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time

Some people around me, contributes too, to this pressure

As for now, it's unavoidable

I really hate this situation. I never felt like this bad

But.... I have to be strong. I have to keep going. I have to finish what i have started

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My late night thought. At this hour, Im so demotivated. I feel weak. I feel the pressure. I feel the pain. Im so stress. Im so overthinking that affect my period cycle, that cause body ache, head ache, that take my appetite away. I don't want to tell to anybody so this has become my medium to express my feelings

Sometimes I feel like why I took this course at the first place? Why why

To be honest, I do felt like to quit

But thinking of my parents, they have sacrificed everything

They even don't let me to pinjam with PTPTN

They sponsored my studies even during my degree year

I don't have a heart to mention the word QUIT as it would break their hearts, will make them worried so much. I have to pretend that Im okay when actually Im not

I am literally crying while Im typing this

I will keep on going until the end, no matter what

Ya Allah, please help me. Please forgive me.

Ya Allah. Semoga dijauhkan daripada rasa berputus asa. Aminnnnn